This is my 1st blog for YOU

This is the 1st and ever blog in my life... previously i never think of blogging like right now and blogging for me is like wasting of time.. i rather use the time for gaming either sleeping..
The reason why i wanted to start blogging because i realize that there were alot.. too much of hard feeling that keep inside my heart but cant express to any1 else especially my closest 1.. No 1 understand me...
Good friend? i ever think of this.. i dun reali know how many good fren tat i have.. wats the different between fren and good fren? the 1 who i took as a good fren.. din really consider me as his good fren.. i was sad... i cant do anything..
Girl friend? currently i have a gal friend but she is goin to oversea.. leaving in another 16days..
she is worried about our future.. she said tat she is lonely.. her bf dun care bout her.. her bf dun share her daily life.. her bf hurt her again n again.. her bf ignore her when she is down.. WAT KIND OF BF IS THIS??!
I admit that i am not a perfect lover.. i love myself.. i put myself in the 1st place sometime.. i like to mix with my friends.. (maybe i have less friend).. i dun think i reali suitable for holding a relationship.. i wanted to change for her... but i lose to myself.. my own attitude.. i am a loser... BIG loser in everything!!!! EVERYTHING...
I hope to share my life with you through this blog... perhaps it will work better way..